Eeek, friends… I have all the feels with this episode. I share my story, and I don’t know why that feels so scary.
I thought episode 10 would be a great time so share a little more about my story with you all, so I opened up about my childhood to around the time I started my business 6 years ago.
I share how my family moved around so much and how many schools I went to. And I shared how my Dad’s illness caused deep emotional hurt that I didn’t know how to process. I unintentionally got real, raw, and vulnerable about it all, and even memories were coming up for me I hadn’t thought of in a long time.
Since recording the episode I have literally had 101 reasons go through my mind as to why I shouldn’t post it, why I should re-do it, or just skip this weeks episode. I am worried people will judge me. I am scared I’ll sound like I am grasping for attention (which is what I used to get told by “friends” the few times I did voice my pains when I was in a really low emotional place). And I don’t want people who knew me through that time to think that they had anything to do with what I was dealing with internally.
But you know what, this is a great opportunity for me to practice what I preach, and I know sharing this will feel liberating, offer me another level of growth beyond my comfort zone, and I know for SURE it will give you insight and inspiration. My story carries with it an incredible silver lining of realising that anyone of us, regardless of our internal struggles, can choose to recreate ourselves and design a life we are fucking in love with.
So here it is, the episode that brought a bit of fear up for me. And I am still kind of hoping no one listens to it!! And if you do, I know you won’t think I overshared or that it’s even that bad, it’s just because even now I am still healing from wounds that I have had for years, and it’s so personal.
It’s moments like these I am reminded of how grateful I am for my business and the personal growth entrepreneurship brought with it. Without it, I don’t think I would have ever been able to honestly say, I flipping love my life. And I am so grateful for everything I have been through. Yup.
Every. Single. Thing.